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On 2020, and More

Posted By schizophreniadiaries 362 days ago on Sci-Fi

https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - 2020 has been a hell of a year for everyone.  For me, it meant turning twenty-two, buying a home, getting married, writing accomplishments from a tenth NaNoWriMo to self publishing, pandemic quarantine keeping me from my library volunteering, my best friend moving in and then out, going back on meds, reading dozens of books, crochetingContinue reading "On 2020, and More"

On My Schizophrenia Tamagotchi

Posted By schizophreniadiaries 502 days ago on Sci-Fi

https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - “Farrah’s back,” I said at brunch.  “She seems to like mornings.” It was a morning just days ago when Farrah appeared for the first time.  A puppy hiding between the edge of a desk and the wall.  She never got too close, but when I paid particular attention to her, I could, unbidden, feel herContinue reading "On My Schizophrenia Tamagotchi"

On Hindsight and Blinders, for the Queer and Mentally Ill

Posted By schizophreniadiaries 498 days ago on Sci-Fi

https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - Quarantine has made a lot of people get back in touch with each other, and in the year before quarantine, I delightfully seemed to keep ending up with sudden messages from old, out of touch friends.  This always begs the question—what do you say?   Sometimes I start where we left off and bring them upContinue reading "On Hindsight and Blinders, for the Queer and Mentally Ill"

On Functionality Thresholds and Medication

Posted By schizophreniadiaries 485 days ago on Sci-Fi

https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - So I saw a psychiatrist through an online urgent care service after remembering that it was an option, and started on a new antipsychotic.  I had a lot of mixed feelings about going back on meds.  At first, I felt like it was a cynical move—the action that confirmed the thought that I wouldn’t getContinue reading "On Functionality Thresholds and Medication"

On Assorted Illnesses and Language (A Conlang Concept)

Posted By schizophreniadiaries 479 days ago on Sci-Fi

https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - As someone into grammar and linguistics, who debates the requirements of a split infinitive and the correctness of implied antecedents and whether you can punctuate dialogue with semicolons, for fun, language is in my head a lot.  As someone with schizophrenia, not to mention autism, language gets messy.  I’ve pondered making a mini constructed languageContinue reading "On Assorted Illnesses and Language (A Conlang Concept)"

On Psychosis and Writing

Posted By schizophreniadiaries 441 days ago on Sci-Fi

https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - I get an idea.  A few minutes later, the very distinct thought: I need to stop thinking about this too hard.  Or I need a pen. My fingers twitch.    Pen. It can’t move fast enough on the page, chaos that will be a brief note in a dated, color coded table of contents.  TuckedContinue reading "On Psychosis and Writing"

On Nightmares, Briefly

Posted By schizophreniadiaries 413 days ago on Sci-Fi

https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - It was a nice enough dream until it wasn’t.  I don’t remember the rest of it, but it was uneventful and nostalgic.  I was at the middle school I went to for eighth grade and, as usual, my dad was picking me up from school.  But he seemed uneasy, in a way he’d never expressedContinue reading "On Nightmares, Briefly"

On “Are You Hallucinating?”

Posted By schizophreniadiaries 347 days ago on Sci-Fi

https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - “Are you hallucinating?”  It sounds like such a simple and important question.  But there are several catches that people don’t realize when they want to hear yes or no. First question: do I know I’m hallucinating?  I usually have a pretty decent grasp on that for the big stuff, but not everyone does.  Corpse, notContinue reading "On “Are You Hallucinating?”"

On Growing Up in a Violent World

Posted By schizophreniadiaries 336 days ago on Sci-Fi

https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - Seventh grade, age twelve.  There’s a swastika duct taped—really, not spray painted, duct taped—on the ground on the basketball courts, and so PE is moved to the soccer field.  We also could’ve moved to the indoor basketball court, or the pool room, or the gym room, or the track, or the tennis courts, or—God, thisContinue reading "On Growing Up in a Violent World"

On Farrah and Treatment

Posted By schizophreniadiaries 506 days ago on Sci-Fi

https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - Previously “Fuck,” I mumbled when my shoulder cramped, which was interesting, because I’d kind of assumed I was nonverbal at the moment, the way my thoughts flowed or didn’t and a familiar feeling somewhere in my throat, though I hadn’t tested it.  I couldn’t blame my shoulder for cramping; my disorientation at speaking came withContinue reading "On Farrah and Treatment"