https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - “Are you hallucinating?” It sounds like such a simple and important question. But there are several catches that people don’t realize when they want to hear yes or no. First question: do I know I’m hallucinating? I usually have a pretty decent grasp on that for the big stuff, but not everyone does. Corpse, notContinue reading "On “Are You Hallucinating?”"
https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - 2020 has been a hell of a year for everyone. For me, it meant turning twenty-two, buying a home, getting married, writing accomplishments from a tenth NaNoWriMo to self publishing, pandemic quarantine keeping me from my library volunteering, my best friend moving in and then out, going back on meds, reading dozens of books, crochetingContinue reading "On 2020, and More"
https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - I get an idea. A few minutes later, the very distinct thought: I need to stop thinking about this too hard. Or I need a pen. My fingers twitch. Pen. It can’t move fast enough on the page, chaos that will be a brief note in a dated, color coded table of contents. TuckedContinue reading "On Psychosis and Writing"
https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - As someone into grammar and linguistics, who debates the requirements of a split infinitive and the correctness of implied antecedents and whether you can punctuate dialogue with semicolons, for fun, language is in my head a lot. As someone with schizophrenia, not to mention autism, language gets messy. I’ve pondered making a mini constructed languageContinue reading "On Assorted Illnesses and Language (A Conlang Concept)"
https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - So I saw a psychiatrist through an online urgent care service after remembering that it was an option, and started on a new antipsychotic. I had a lot of mixed feelings about going back on meds. At first, I felt like it was a cynical move—the action that confirmed the thought that I wouldn’t getContinue reading "On Functionality Thresholds and Medication"
https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - “Farrah’s back,” I said at brunch. “She seems to like mornings.” It was a morning just days ago when Farrah appeared for the first time. A puppy hiding between the edge of a desk and the wall. She never got too close, but when I paid particular attention to her, I could, unbidden, feel herContinue reading "On My Schizophrenia Tamagotchi"
https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - I’m writing. It’s going really well. Pages and pages of ink in my beloved dot grid Moleskine. So many pages, I think to comment to friends about my comparatively unpretentious but equally beloved Bic pen that has somehow lasted me almost sixty total pages, plus about half of my previous Moleskine, and months of WordContinue reading "On Knowing Your Mind Is Vulnerable, and What You Do About It"
https://theschizophreniadiaries.com - Previously “Fuck,” I mumbled when my shoulder cramped, which was interesting, because I’d kind of assumed I was nonverbal at the moment, the way my thoughts flowed or didn’t and a familiar feeling somewhere in my throat, though I hadn’t tested it. I couldn’t blame my shoulder for cramping; my disorientation at speaking came withContinue reading "On Farrah and Treatment"
https://noobnorm.com - Is time travel possible? And if it is, what problems does it potentially cause? This beginner's guide to time travel takes a deep dive into the potential ways we might be able to travel into the past and future.